Tuesday, October 27, 2009
I was there for his arrival. I was also there when he departed from this world and desended to heaven. When he was born I named him Teddy Bear. You see he didn't look her real . He looked like a teddy bear. My dog was his mom. And my mom needed something to love now that I was out of the house. So I gave her Teddy. She shortened his name to Mr.T.Bear,but called him Bear. I brought my dog over often so that they could play. My mom passed away 4 yrs ago and my dog passed soon after that. So I happily took Bear in. Bear was 10 yrs old. Last night he was really bad off. I watched over him all night. Just in case he needed me. After taking my 5yr old to school this morning Bear was crying in pain and had a begging in his eyes. As if to say ,"Please help me." I was told he was having heart failure. My dear sweet Teddy was suffering. So I took him to the ASPCA and stayed with him till the very end. I held him, rocked him and sang to him just as I'd done on the day he was born. I told him I love you Teddy and as he always did he touched his nose to mine. One last kiss. An Eskimo kiss. Sweet baby boy you no longer are in pain. Your body is made new so that you can once again run and play without a care in the world. No fleas to annoy you. I do hope this blog makes sense as I have had no sleep sense 8am yesterday morning. It's 6pm now.I cried till my eyes feel soar. I'm sure I'm dehydrated to. My little girl took it very well. She explained that we would see him again one day when we got to heaven. I take comfort in that. Gracie my little tea cup chiuahua puppy that i resqued a month ago won't stop going from room to room looking for her friend,Bear. I shall smother Gracie in love and attention and cherish the memories of my dear friend. I love you and miss you Bear.